They’re just looking for an increase in their paycheck. I don’t like the idea of them, because to me all it seems like they’re interested in is dishing out meds like candy and not caring about the person behind the problems. I didn’t see what good a shrink would do, and I told him that. I don’t know how I’d handle it if my daughter… I used to be angry about how he’d react, but now I just feel terrible, like I could stop it if I wanted to, but I keep pushing it, testing his patience. It scared him just as badly as it did me, which only made me feel… guilty, like I was somehow to blame for it all. I used that line on my dad when he had the last straw of it, of me disappearing, and reappearing, and told me he was taking me to a shrink. How can I even begin to explain it to them? Or to anyone. I wouldn’t dare tell any of my friends about this kind of stuff, they’d just think I was nuts – though it is kind of hard to hide it when it happens, when they ask me where I disappeared to and why I look like I’ve just had the bejeezus scared outta me. They’re not the kind of crap you want to keep down in a dream journal, okay? Not something you’d share with, well, anybody. I can tell a dream from reality – once the dream is over, and thank god it does because half the ones I’ve had aren’t exactly light and fluffy. For instance, I don’t think narcoleptics wake up not remembering how they got there, or find themselves trapped in one of their dreams.ĭon’t worry, I’m not crazy. ![]() That makes me sound narcoleptic or something weird like that, but honestly I can’t quite explain it, and I don’t think that’s what it is. I’ve been having some trouble with sleeping lately… the dreaming part, now that’s no problem: I dream all the time, whether I can remember it clearly or not, but lately… the trouble is how often it happens.
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